Anxiety and Frustrations.

"Do not be anxious about anything; but in everything, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving in your hearts present your requests to God."

Sometimes I find it very hard not to be anxious about things. Even when I know that God is in control and I can't do anything about things, I still find it hard at times to just let go and let him have all my feelings and anxiety.


For months now my husband has been suffering from pain in the leg that simply is unbearable at times. Normally those times are in the middle of the night or after he has been driving for long periods of time. The doctors finally agreed that they could do nerve destruction surgery and cut the nerve that causes the pain, but first they wanted to do all kinds of tests.

In the process of doing all these tests other things have surfaced. Things that really may be of more importance then nerve destruction. So, how do you categorize and prioritize when these things are health issues?

In 2002 he had a abdominal aortic aneurysm repaired right above the left kidney. The doctor who is scheduled to do the surgery on Friday morning insisted that he go see the thoracic surgeon before he goes ahead with the nerve destruction surgery.

Thursday when he went to see this new doctor since the doctor who did the original repair in 2002 has retired. Well, sitting on his table Bud said, he felt what they were seeing was the repair that was done in 2002..... Dr. said, NO IT IS NOT, you have a new 4.5 cm aneurysm above the repair. Wham,---- that's a time bomb--- especially in his family. BUT, he would like to watch it and repair it when it reaches 5---unless he wants it repaired earlier then he would repair it then.

Friday he gets a call from our family doctor and they said he needed to have a contrast/with dye MRI done on the Mass/legion that is above the right kidney. This is to be done with an oncologist. And if the oncologist does not like what he sees they will go down the hallway and take a sample to test.

He called me on the phone and ask "What kind of doctor is an oncologist?" I was stunned, I thought he knew..... So they think this big mass above the kidney could be Cancer?
Why else would they want to do this with an oncologist?
They had found this mass when they did the other MRI to make sure there were no pinched nerves.

The heart doctor had to do an echo to make sure he could do the nerve destruction surgery. And he told him, that in the next 6-12 months he would need to have a Pace Maker installed to take care of his irregular heart beats.


WHAMMMM....................
What is most important?

Summary:
He has:
A abdominal aortic aneurysm above one kidney.
A mass/legion above the other kidney.
Needs nerve destruction surgery.
Needs a pacemaker.
Has coronary artery disease and emphysema.


So, yes I am overwhelmed this week. I know God is in control and he will be with me every step of the way.

The nerve destruction surgery is set for Friday a.m. early. From there we wait and see what the MRI/with contrast will show on Tuesday.
I know that having a aneurysm is bugging Bud real bad. I am almost sure he will want to get it fixed as soon as possible.

What the month of March holds for our household...Well that is up to GOD!

Thank you God, for being there for us when we need you. Help us trust you daily and not let the trials of health issues get us down!